all things considered

not to dramatic of a weekend. one sis ran away, brother rushed to hospital for an appendicitis scare. boy kinda seeing or should i deem stalker, stops by unannounced saturday, 'where have you been? why arent you returning my calls?'
me, 'em well'
granted my phone really was dead and i really had spent the night before making sure my bro was ok. but as a friend says, you're just not that into him. even tho on my mental clipboard i can check off so many boxes. theres just no spark. and i guess if it isnt there it isnt there.
false alarm on the appendicitis thingy but as for the sister, well mia. ah 16yr olds. just hoping and praying. what else can you do?
but maybe she's home now.

so strangely cycling along, very intent on road, bit shakey after wreck-did i post about that? huge gash on chin, wouldnt stop bleeding, left with scar? and i hear 'aoife' and this being dublin i almost ignore it,
way too many aoifes here let me tell ya what, no longer unique, cant get by on just first name, and i turn and its the crazy artist man i dated (?) last fall and im in shock, cut his hair and it was just strange one of those just staring at eachother things, too much to say, both talking a mile a minute interrupting each other etc. dunno what to think, supposed to meet up this weekend. hmmm.

moving on today the lecture was on encephalitis, very scary thing, mortality rate is horrific and i know this is going to sound creepy but i'm so loving school at the moment. cns diseases are so fascinating. went to hospital yesterday for a clinical and they'd a patient come with severe depression, ocd, and anxiety. and then heard lecture about the brain, and how it really is all down to brain chemistry. lecturer called them 'chemical storms'
ok so could ramble on about school forever. damn there was a very attractive male sitting next to me but how do you interact with someone in a computer lab? like i know i could've done something silly like drop a pen etc, but ah well. not really in for that stuff

very sad as its now fall, the spiritual cat has abandoned me, she no longer frequents my room. good no more cat hair, but honestly kinda liked the company. so want to get a puppy. but that thought was ruined by punk asking me if i was ready to have something to take care of for 15 years. em yeah of course.
fall always makes me think of the fall meet at keeneland. i would love to go back for it. that and uk bball. argh contacts driving me mad and eek its gone from sunny to overcast outside and im so not into cycling in the rain. know that i had to train myself to stop saying 'ride my bike' cause ride well different connotation. thats probably spelled wrong. fun fact sure you wanted to know. and im starting to get grumpy cause i havent eaten. it so affects my mood. i mean how can you not eat emotionally? although i am glad that they've started to list overeating as an eating disorder along with anorexia and bulimia. before it was always like it was about self-control or laziness. when its something just as deep and ingrained, going much farther than laziness.
enough rambling for today.