ive been feeling so lost and so in an effort to find well when lost you start at where you last knew where you were, right?
dont have outdoor skills training or whatever it is that kept that kid alive in some national park in the usa recently a more energetic me would have looked it up provided the link but yeah that was a more energetic me
so i went back to my old old oldest posts and my god. who is that girl how did i lose her, is she still inside me
supposedly in 2005 i was never going to repeat again.
well then. 29 now and shit. as yer man on the wire-brilliant the bbc finally started to show it here, would say,'sheee-it'
shit im so far from where i thought i would be so far from where i want(ed) to be so far
and so a big whine was about to come your way and maybe this is the lesson i must learn. maybe theres no lesson, just another human trying to image a pattern, create something to make sense of it all because if it doesnt make sense, if there isnt a way to rationalise, justify it well . . . .
and well im already neck deep in cliches. how annoying 'another human trying . . .' feck. and double feck.
my parents had a(not tea cup) mug that said,"no matter where you go, there you are," drove me mental as a child. "mam, what does that mean no matter where you go . . ."
and its true. no matter where i go, there i am.
damn. will i read this 5 years from now and have the same questions?
